Deciding not to bother.

While I can't say that I've ever done that in regards to my daily agenda, because of school and the necessity of studying the text in order to pass classes that I paid hundreds of dollars for, I can testify that I've passed up quite a few things because of the bother.

The most recent being a girl. She's not that bad or anything, in fact she's a pretty nice person through and through, but the amount of baggage she was lugging around with her would have smothered me. Now don't get me wrong, I love being in relationships. It's great to feel wanted, and to do all of the things that couples do, but there's a make-it-or-break-it threshold I have with girls and dating them.
This girl had quite a past that I didn't want to deal with. I don't want to go into specifics, but she used to be a drug addict (hard drugs), and her brain's obviously been affected by the heavy use. I feel kind of bad not dating her because of that, but it would be impossible for me to bother with her when I have so much else on my plate.

And in the end it feels good knowing that I won't have to deal with it. I feel bad because I have to constantly turn her down for dates and the like, and I have so much empathy for her because she's told me everything that happened to her...but I'm determined not to bother with a girl like that when I deserve so much better.



Wow, I just read that back and I sounded so selfish. Meh, I guess it can't be helped.

Jam it back in, in the dark.