Losing belief

For a few years, I tried to follow my dad's apparent beliefs. He appeared to be anti-theist, feeling belief in anything supernatural -- gods, magic, cryptozoology, etc -- the sign of an idiot, or gullible, or both. I TRIED to adhere, but some part of me was adamant in retaining a magical view of the world, and in the end all anti-theism did for me was aggravate my chronic depression.

My mom is a lax Wiccan, but she doesn't talk about her beliefs. She did however lend me her old Wicca books and those were like a lifesaver to me. I didn't convert, but I was finally able to ditch the anti-theism. Currently I'm not part of any religion, but have a lot of interconnected spiritual beliefs.

So basically, my story is kind of like CetteHamsterLa's.
Oh hey, Vivi's post with anti-theism swapped for God and Catholicism is also pretty accurate!

(It turned out that my dad's beliefs were not as harsh as they looked, but that realization was too late to do me much good.)

Jam it back in, in the dark.