Dealing with soon-to-be loss

There's no easy way to do this. My grandma was diagnosed with kidney failure, a transplant was out of the question and she refused dialysis. In that kind of situation, it's only a matter of time, the question being when. I told myself that she has led a full life and that death would be a welcome release from her current suffering. I doubt I was convinced about that.

This is probably one of the situations where religious belief has an advantage. If you believe that you will see each other again, it sort of comforts you a bit since you believe the separation is only temporary.

A lurker is right. You will regret not seeing them, no matter how much it pains you. All I can say is, try to make the best out of the remaining time you have with them.

Jam it back in, in the dark.