What does this mean? (My first girl problem)

It happens, especially if you are in your teen age years. I remember the first person I dated broke up with me within a month. She couldn't bear to do it to my face so she had a friend of hers deliver a note to me. I was hurt at first, then went through a time of wanting her back, and then was fine.

My advice is not to worry about it. Yes, easier said then done. However, look at the bright side in which 1) it is proven that you can go out on a date and be in a relationship with someone for a period of time, and 2) you learned a little bit of what is required for a relationship. The previous two points many people aren't able to learn about, and it drives them nuts. Take solice in that you can.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

I would have to argue with Surass on the personality thing a bit. I guess I go by the old mentality, "Thirty years down the road, when most looks are all but gone, would I still be happy with her?".

I think it's safe to say she said that to end things quietly, on a "high note". My advice (again) is to not concern yourself (again, easier said than done). You are in your twenties, with plenty of time to date. Now, I am NOT the person to ask about how to pick up dates, other members could create a new thread and go round and round on that (if that hasn't happened already?). However, the main point is that you have time, and that there is no reason to worry too much. One bit of advice I got from someone is to 'focus on school now, do well, THEN go ahead and date'. That type of mindset just worked wonders for me, and was a good way to channel any emotions I had into something productive.

There's nowhere I can't reach.