Losing belief

Being raised in the South, I was brought up as Baptist. Went to a private school that was based in very strict Baptist beliefs (no dancing, rock music, or fun). I listened to their beliefs and I'm glad I did, because it's all very interesting. At the same time, I never really adhered to any of it. And after graduation, I still went to church and all that.

Over time, I kind of started to examine the ideas and attitudes of people I was around. A lot of it was rather contrary to what was written, or interpreted really oddly. Not to mention the people, while nice, weren't always what you'd expect. Like, they weren't there for the worship and ideas--they were just there by habit.

So, I eventually quit attending church because there's really no good updates. Having spent 7 years in a Christian School, and years in church, you kind of hear it all.

"Any news on Jesus...?"
"Nope"
"Ok then. See ya next week!"

While looking things over, I'm pretty much in a "Agnostic Nondenominational Christian" category. I think the Christianity thing is pretty well ingrained in my head now, so it's hard to just completely let go. But I'm not entirely sure I believe anymore. I'm more of the opinion that there's a God out there, although maybe not the Christian God? I still pray--to who or whatever there is out there, if anything. Sometimes it's hard to break habits. But yeah, currently, I have no freakin' idea what I believe.

Jam it back in, in the dark.