Totally fucked up

You said yourself Fenix that it's a self-fulfilled prophecy; that means you must have some way of telling that you know you are consciously thinking about being boring. You expect yourself to be boring and as such you bore people.

How about you try and forget for one night that you feel flawed; let someone actually see you as you are and stop obsessing over how you look to other people. In my personal experience, being yourself is the best thing you can do to find someone who is compatible with you.

Maybe you're obsessing over getting a partner quickly. I'm going to be unusually harsh and say that implies that you wish for something a little more base than a meaningful relationship. If the latter is what you truly wanted, you could wait until you knew it was right. Instead you are obsessing over girls at parties, assuming they think you are boring. Had it ever occurred to you that maybe a lack of worry and a lack of interest in finding a partner might help you more than your current mindset?

To Ozzie: I was in a teenage relationship and felt the same way myself, but things turned out differently. You can never tell how the die are going to fall, no matter how convinced you are. I'm not denying that sometimes relationships can blossom from such an early age but being so naive you can never see the future yourself.

Jam it back in, in the dark.