Losing belief

I think catholic schools should be outlawed, personally. When you're that young it's not fair to have such a belief shoved down your throat. You're susceptible and vulnerable to believing whatever an adult tells you is truth.

I grew up going through catholic school after catholic school, accepting christianity as truth. From the ages of six until I was about fourteen I was terrified that I was going to hell. I had sinned and often times, my teachers would tell me that my disobedience in the classroom was unforgivable in the eyes of god, that I better pray extra long tonight.

Fortunately, once I reached the age of fourteen or so, I just stopped believing. It wasn't due to some traumatic event or some kind of grand finale, I just stopped. After years of debating with people and defending my beliefs, everything I read just finally made sense. I can't explain why I felt this way, maybe it's just a part of growing up.

I don't waiver anymore, despite my mother telling me that I'll change my mind once I hit adulthood.

Jam it back in, in the dark.