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Jan 15, 2007 - 01:15 AM |
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Feeling pretty fucked up lately |
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So, after a relaxing holiday in Belgium, I'm back in Japan for the next 8 months. The thing is, I've come to realize that I'm just bored like hell here, and it's getting worse everyday.
First of all, classes are just dreadful to go to. I mean, I learned new stuff in the first few weeks, but lately there hasn't been anything interesting going on at all. I dread getting up at 8 in the morning, to go to some stupid grammar class that isn't even teaching me anything that I didn't knew before. Classmates aren't a big help either, since most of them are Vietnamese (not to insult anyone, but they are easily the most annoying people on this uni), and there's the Korean girl that I get along with. Some of the teachers are also irritating as hell, being Japanese and all (I can't take their politeness that much longer).
Outside of classes, there isn't much else to do, since we are on a bloddy mountain on the edge of freaking civilization here. There's a girl here that I get along with, but still, you can only spend so much time around here before the lamest talks start (she has a boyfriend though, and I don't really fancy blond chicks). The rest of my time here is spent watching DVDs, reading, and sitting depressed in my room, since there is NOTHING going on.
Sure, we can go out, but it isn't cheap, and we have to be on the bus and/or train for too long. We went to a reception and a drink on friday with some other Belgian students, but it just bored me. The highlight of my week was meeting up with Yasu, a Japanese volleyball player that I met in Belgium during my vacation, someone that I could finally talk to without being annoyed by stupid Japanese things every few minutes. Of course, most of our conversations are about volleyball, since he's basically the only one that seems to be interested in that here. The bad thing is that he'll be going back to Tokyo next week, so I will be bored yet again.
I also feel isolated from my family and friends, since I still don't have a permanent internet connection, and most of my friends have exams. On top of that, I had a thing with my ex a few days before I went back to Japan (biggest mistake I made in years), and I'm having a fight with my best friend over it, which is totally my fault, and I tried everything to get her to atleast talk to me, but no success. This is really the most awful thing that has happened in the past weeks, since she is the one that knows me best and probably the only one who can help me in this situation.
The worst thing though is my growing insomnia. I have slept no more than TEN HOURS in a week, I just lie in my bed, even with sleeping pills, just not being able to sleep for more than an hour. Not only is this driving me crazy because it gives me killer headaches, which don't really make my stupid mandatory classes more bearable, but I also get more and more bored since THERE IS NOTHING TO DO ON THIS MOUNTAIN.
Don't like me ranting? though luck.
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