Your Relationship with your Parents

My relationship with my parents is not exactly what I would like it to be.
I myself have grown up in a home that is not hostile at all, but there is little closeness between me and my parents. Occasionally, I will divulge a few feelings of mine to my mom but nothing too deep, and I never really have any personal discussions with my dad. Usually my discussions with my father are limited to just matters of intellect.
Unfortunately as well, there was not a whole lot of explicit displays of affection in our family, so I seem to have trouble doing the same with others. Although, my parents definitely show love in more subtle and implicit ways. One time I had a conversation with my dad about how our family operated (and this was a very strained conversation, to say the least) and he was basically saying that he ran our family so that love was something that was inherently understood in how we interact, and did not need to be overtly expressed all the time.

I guess I feel like that Hasidic Jew boy from Chaim Potok's "The Chosen."

Jam it back in, in the dark.