Death visiting your life

Through the course of your life, have you experienced many deaths close to heart? Friends? Family? How do you personally deal with this sort of loss?

I`ve been pretty fortunate in this area. I`ve never had a friend die, and as far as family is concerned my grandfather died eleven years ago but I was never really around him enough to care. I mean, he was around on Holidays and things like that, maybe two months a year when he went to Hollywood (California) from Guatemala, but he was a drunk and we never really bonded. Over a year ago a very close friend of my mother`s died of cancer. She had written me several times in prison, even tried to reconsole me with Christianity, and she died a little bit after that. It was odd and slightly hurtful to see her letters and know I`d never get another from her. Shame I hadn`t seen her since I was about ten. I feel bad for criticizing her beliefs in my responses to her.

When I was little I remember my mother told me the old lady that babysat me died. That did kind of hurt. I was a little kid and remember spending Easter with her. I even taught her to play Super Mario 2. Slightly, anyway.

So, yeah. People have died around me but for the most part I didn`t know them enough to care. How about you Charlie?

Jam it back in, in the dark.