Losing a Loved One

People look down on me for this, but they really need to look at me from my point of view to really get it.

When I was very young, I was diagnosed with a mild form of autism. There wasn’t a lot of treatment or information on autism at the time, so a lot of research was done on me and other kids at the hospital, personally I do not think or did think that anything was wrong with me, I was aware of what was going on, but it really hurt being in a place for the sick when I wasn’t feeling sick, and my mother never told me the reason until I was in my late teens. I was a sad kid in other words.

During that time when I was 5, I got 2 cats Snowball and Cuddles. Both where the best friends I ever had. Kids always picked on me, and I was always judged because I would rather read or draw, then interact with them. I always looked forward to coming home to my cats, I talked to them and we played together. When I was 17, Snowball died, Cuddles and I where almost over the edge, we barely ate or slept that week. Cuddles is still alive to this day, he just turned 18… I don’t know what I will do when he goes.

It has always been a reality with me that I care more about my cats then the people around me. My cats didn’t care about my grades, how I dressed, what music I listened to, or any other nonsense. Sure I get sad when a person close to me died, but Snowball was definitely the death that affected me the most.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Originally Posted by kat

And Chibi Neko no one looks down on you for feeling that way about your cat. I have a dog and he's seriously one of my best friends and I don't know what i'm going to do with myself when he dies.

Thanks, a lot of people where I am from have looked down on me becasue of how close I was to my cat, but it is always the people how are not pet owners who feel that way.

My other cat Cuddles is with my mom back at home, he is not a cat that can deal with location changes, so I had to leave him home when I moved out. My mom is now living with the same thing I did with the cats, they become your best buddies. I will be greatly effected when Cuddles' time comes, but now mom will be devistaed also.

There's nowhere I can't reach.