Second born, second best

Lately I am beginning to feel the classic 'second born, second best' syndorm. My brother is about a year older then me (he was 3 month old when mom was pregnant with me so we are pretty close in age)

Mom wanted a boy and Dad wanted a girl so they where both happy, Dad however was the only one that really treated us the same. If we wanted to go to the store for candy, we would give us both a doller, he taught us both to ride a bike and always played with the both of us in pillow and snowball fights, never taking sides.

Mom seemed to spend the most effort on my brother. On xmas she gave him a keyboard and put him in lessons, she took him out cuz he did not make any progress, but I was able to play 'Ode to Joy' when I was 5 and did not get lessons til I was 14.

To mom everything my bro does is a big deal, even though he puts her through the most financal stress. Dad saved and gave us money for our education after high-school.

BROTHER: He and his girfriend had a daugher in grade 12, his money is spent in private collage on the first month, gets multiple loans, parents provide food and some rent money. He gets married in a BIG wedding, buys a van, two moter bikes in which mom signs for. Buys house in which parents provide down payment. Wife goes to school with multiple loans, gets job for short time in her field, has another baby, and plans on a third.

ME: Money spent on public collage and car with money left over. No loans. Gets job right away and still teaches music. Buys car. Gets b/f. plans to marry in a small wedding, but mom wants us to just get a marrage licence, plan to by house, but I politly try refuse dad the downpayment he is offering cuz my b/f and I make enough money to pay for it ourselves.

My dad is not a problem, he is behind us both even though he is against my brother's reckless spending, but mom is different, she does not seem to believe in me and thinks I cannot do anything on my own, even though I am more financally stable then my brother, she says 'I cannot see how you two can pay for a house' why not? my brother did it with one paycheck, two kids, 2 loans, a van, and two bikes! My b/f and I have no kids (At least not yet) no loans, two paychecks, 1 car, and my b/f loan.

Is this my mom or is it me feeling a little jealous?

Jam it back in, in the dark.

My mom has a big family, 7 sisters and only 2 brothers, my aunt told me that she always wanted a little boy. When my brother was expeting his frst child she was hoping that it would be a boy, but was still happy that a girl came out, but she seemed to be more exited when the second child was a boy.

Dad had a small family, 1 brother. I guess he just wanted a daddy's girl. He treats both his grandkids like they where me and my brother.

How ya doing, buddy?