Kids was always something that was like, "oh yeah maybe one day". Well my one day is already here and slowly going, and I'm not feeling that desire to have kids. I feel like I don't know want to give up anything for them, I'm sure if I suddenly became pregnant and had children I'd do anything for them, but I want to have kids because I wanted them, not like oops.. well I have no choice now. But I also don't want to regret it in 20 years and go thinking, man I wish I had kids. But that isn't a good reason either to have children.
So I'm kind of just going along with it. If that desire never comes, then maybe I'll just never have children. I sort of hope that if I ultimately ended up with kids, I would rather have them sooner rather than later. But it's not really working right now
It's too bad because all aspects of my life is stable right now. Everyone in our neighbourhood is wondering what is going on with us. We have the perfect set up to have children, but we're totally content with our dog.
Jam it back in, in the dark.
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