Nobody could ever love the real me

Eleo, I'm all of the things you described and I'm married. So there is hope.

One day you'll find someone who doesn't give a shit that you're lazy and may be lazier than you. That person won't be a needy dependent that can't function without you attached to the hip therefore you'll be able to play computer geek all day long. Whenever you think you're so heartless and cruel that noone could possibly love you, along comes someone who for some reason makes you feel like being a human fucking being for at least a few minutes a day. Only a few minutes though because you'll still be a lazy shit. During the other 23 hours of the day, your cynical attitude will continue but not really affect the significant other because they'll think highly enough of you to respect your pessimistic attitude and take it for what it's worth, nothing. Misery loves company. So in a sick and twisted way you'll begin to really care about the person that either makes you more miserable or you'll care because you'll have gotten used to not being the only miserable person in the room and you'll feel happier knowing that someone feels just a shitty as you do. Finding a GOOD PERSON that sees you and still loves you will be like finding a lawyer with a soul. But when you finally find that person, it'll be a deal like a limp dick...you can't beat it.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

MK, You speak somewhat the truth. I based my point assuming someone will spend more than 6 months dating before they get married and actually bother to get to know the person. It took me 6 years with to realize "ok, i can deal with this person for the rest of my life". to me marriage isn't even so much about finding someone you can love, really love. it's about finding someone you love and still being able to put up with them even at their worst. I feel like I can say that because we've been putting up with each other's same old bullshit for 10 years now and we're still HAPPILY married and in love.

moral of my story is that no matter how deep dark evil and unlovable you think you are or are, 99.999% of the time there is someone out there that is just as deep dark evil and unlovable looking for someone just like you to at least share their misery with and be happily miserable together. getting married to that person is fairly simple, finding them in the first place is the hard part.

There's nowhere I can't reach.

Originally Posted by Monkey King

Okay, just to be argumentative. Sure you can find someone deep, dark, evil, and unlovable - but what if that's not the sort of person you're particularly interested in?

valid point. course there are plenty of nice people out there that fall in love with unlovable people. Good girls fall for the bad guy all the time. There's no logic or magic formula to it. As much as I try to get it cut and dry, there will always be loop holes. It's emotion we're talking about here. I'm just going on what I've either experienced or seen, which has been many types of relationships. Alot of them worked and alot of them failed. And if, for some chance you can't find someone and are just destined to be alone, then fuck it, you'll be alone. Have fun with it or sit and your room and cry about it. You may have a purpose in life other than getting married/shacking up, having a bunch of little brats running around and living the modern middle class life.

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.