I hate people.

Speaking from a similar perspective, I'd like to note that repeating the same old positive-thinking arguments over and over really doesn't make for a compelling case. Lots of people espouse the old "look at the glass half-full, change your thinking, don't focus on the negative" approach, but unfortunately that solution reeks of self-delusion more than anything else. And when you find yourself holding your fellow man in contept, it's hard to believe the popular masses really have any idea what they're talking about.

For a little more insight on the subject: Lee-chan, is it people's failings, or their seeming inability to learn that you're disgusted with? You can't hate people for making mistakes. Screwing up is part of the human condition. As fallbile creatures, it's often the only way we learn. What I find is that a depressing number of people seem to actively choose to NOT learn from their mistakes for one reason or another, instead remaining blissfully ignorant while they sit in their own filth. Perhaps that's what you're really raging against?

Also, what are you seeing a shrink for? Psychiatrists don't do anything except walk you along to conclusions you could have reached all by yourself, without paying exorbitant doctor's fees. My aunt bounced between shrinks for years, and not a damn one of them figured out the problem was that she was in the closet. About all they seem to be good for is diagnosing ADD and bipolar disorder in everyone and writing Zoloft prescriptions.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Heh, emotional hooker. Interesting thought. But, assuming you're being smart and only paying him on a per-session basis, he's not getting paid for it. Really, he's shooting himself in the foot by constantly blowing you off. He's pretty damn stupid if he thinks it's okay to keep cancelling appointments with someone who's depressed. Consider changing shrinks if nothing else.

Maybe you should make yourself more unpleasant to be around. No, really; if it becomes more of a pain to interact with you than it's worth, people will quit trying to mooch favors out of you. Heck, just learning to firmly say 'no' to people tends to make you look like an asshole. While not quite the solution you're looking for, it'll make your life a little less stressful, without all those people walking over you. If you can't learn to quit being too nice for your own good, ward off the situations where it becomes a liability.

There's nowhere I can't reach.