Seeking Approval

Consciously or otherwise, I keep finding myself seeking professional approval, to phrase the idea badly. I'm always annoyed when my abilities are marginalized by others, and regardless of how good a job I do of it, I always keep trying to get people to acknowledge me as a competent, reliable person.

Of course, then I turn around and actively try to keep a low profile and avoid drawing attention to myself, which is completely self-sabotaging. Old habits die hard.

Jam it back in, in the dark.