Negative feelings towards love...advice appreciated.

Originally Posted by Aequitas

Helllo all. I'm somewhat new here (first post) and just wanted to get some help and or advice from anyone. Sorry that this is a bit long.

For the past week I have been feeling reall miserable, I've started developing a huge crush on my best female friend, problem is she is going out with someone...my best male friend. And since they've pretty much my two closest friends I'm around them a hell of a lot, which makes ignoring these feelings soo much harder for me. Two weeks ago she told me of dificulties they were having and came to me for advice, and I gave all teh advice/help I could to make sure they would stay together and that she was happy, and although that was kinda a big conflict of interest on my part, I did the right thing and I'm fine with that.
Now I'm developing negative feelings towards love again though. I haven't really had any postive experiences in regards to love (my first girlfriend drugged and raped me, first crush after that is the girl I have a crush on now, and that crush did not end well for me; second girlfriend was too worried about everything and left me shortly after we started going out and pretty much the whole time we went out she made me feel like shit; third crush ended really badly because she led me on so much, only to pretty much say 'f u I don't like you creepo' and that left me quite heartbroken, and finally, there's this crush where I can't even tell her how I feel for her, which reallly really suckorz.)
I mean, I know I'm only 17 and that I have a long while to find love, but the problem is I've just had soo many bad experiences with relationships that I've gotten into the mindset that I will never find love and actually be happy. I'm aware that these feelings are because I'm partially jaded, but I don't know what to do.
And as for meeting new girls in college, I agree that there are going to be a lot of new people whereever I go to college;l but I really do suck at making new friends, to the point where I have just a few friends.

Dude all you have to consider is that there are OTHER million students ini High school who have the exact same feelings. So suck it up until the alloted time comes up :juggler:

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Yeah sorry I am ranting too...(I have similar problems as well, and hahah I suck about it X_X)

There's nowhere I can't reach.

Well once love comes to you...that must mean there is love from BOTH sides...so I really don't agree with love coming to you at all...more like you should pursue it

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