If I hate (my)life and don't care if I die does that make me emo?

I think you just need to find some outlet to channel your inner frustrations, pain or dissatisfaction. Take story writing for example. Just write what you feel through your characters. Let them act on the drama and consequences. 90% of my stories are about death. I feel suicidal very often, but I have depression. Nothing I do has been able to give me a sense of belonging or even meaning. But, why don't I just find death? I can't. I'm too afraid to kill myself 'cause I think too much about it. That probably doesn't make sense. Emo is ambiguous now. It's a word that has been used, misused and then used again for different descriptions. It's out of hand. Just forget about it. If you hate your life and don't care if you die, then that gears more towards the lines of apathy, passiveness and emptiness.

Jam it back in, in the dark.