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Don't give up hope, nobody was born unworthy of making friends.
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I seriously think I was, to the point where I don't even believe in friendship anymore. After high school, everyone just disappeared. Once I entered college, I made a few acquaintances. Acquaintances are all I can make. I think I made two or three friends, but like my other past friendships, they all either disappeared or I fucked it up.
I'm lonelier than ever before, so I'm pretty much stumped on how such passive strangers can connect. I see all these people with friends everywhere, yet I feel like an isolated alien.
Of course, if you're in a much more confined area where you can see the same people more than once, then your chances are better. That is, if you share similarities. However, initiating a conversation makes me feel depressed, because I often feel like 'what's the point? It's probably not long-term and it's probably not going to last after the semester.' It just feels like all the effort goes nowhere and I feel emptier than I did before. I feel like a CD on rotation; to the top and now back to the bottom.
Jam it back in, in the dark.