IDENTITY CRISIS!!!

Lee-Chan, i'm seriously going through exactly the same thing. In some respects though i know sorta where i wanna go, as i know what makes me feel happy. It feels fake, but it's not and i only put that down to the fact that it is not something i have actively forced myself into before.
My main qualm is that to achieve sorta what i want (or what i think i want i should say) i would have to in many ways disassociate myself from people who i (used to i think in some ways) am close to. This is all up in the air really. It's also pretty normal. Best thing to do is really to keep experimenting, find what you like and if possible try not to burn any bridges or anything, that's the advice i can give. As humans our lives constantly evolve and change, you might wake up one morning and think "i want to do X" or "i'm doing this degree for the wrong reasons" or anything like that you know? it's all relative of course, but don't worry about it. Go with what makes you feel good inside, it'll at least steer you in the right direction

Jam it back in, in the dark.