First "breakup"

I have the perfect story for you.

My first girlfriend was, to say the least, unstable. I wasn't even interested in her, didn't even know she existed, until she expressed her interest in me. I was reluctant at first to date her, because I remembered her from middle school. She used to pick on me a lot, so I wasn't fond of her.

At the time, I was trying to get a different girl. She'd rejected me once before, but that had been several months ago and I figured it was a good time to try again. Suddenly this girl shows up and wants to go out with me. Now back then I was stupid. The girl I was going for would have been the much better choice. She was sweet, attractive, and for some reason, reminded me of Aeris from FF7, who was my favorite female game character at the time. But she turned me down once before, so I had my doubts. This other girl, however was a sure thing.

Now before this story gets too long and boring, we broke up and got back together several times, and over that time, I had developed at least some feelings for her. You don't date someone for any period of time without liking them at least a little. Unless you lost a bet or something. So when she dumped me for the last time, yeah it hurt like hell. And over the years I wondered how things would've been if we stayed together.

A few months ago, I saw her and her boyfriend, fiancee, whatever come into my store. She had two kids with her and looked like absolute hell. She's also 19 or 20 now. I found myself shuddering and wondering "What the bloody fuck did i ever see in her?!" Then I thought to myself, "Oh my God, that could've been me!" and I pitied the poor guy. In the meantime, I've been dating the girl I'm with now for nearly a year, and love her more than anything.

So you see, first loves usually aren't worth a damn. It's after dozens of failures and rejection and heartache that make the One, whenever you find her/him, that much more special to you. So give it some time. One day, several years from now when you see her again on the streets, strung out on some new super drug that puts you in a coma just from smelling the fumes, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about.

Jam it back in, in the dark.