So I'm a bad guy.

Originally Posted by LeHah

Embrace what you are. Theres nothing wrong with being a complete dick, but there is something inherently wrong in lying to yourself about it or trying to be something your not. Just stick to your best nature and live with it; at least that way, no one can call you out on lack of honesty.

I never thought you'd be one of the people that would tell kids they're perfect exactly how they are and never need to work on anything because they're a special little flower.

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I guess I'm also kind of wondering if you all think, however, what possible reasons for being a dick could be. Let's rule out the obvious (being a sociopath) and be more specific. It was suggested to me by someone that because I pretended to be a prick in high school, it became comfortable and usual to me and I became a prick. Which is possible.

I'd say this is the actual reason behind it. When I was younger (elementary school or so) I did the same sort of thing, being really bitter and not liking anyone. Eventually I realized that I wasn't happy like that and needed to make a change. However, since I had been acting so shittily for so long, it was really hard to make the transition. I found the best way to counter it is to actually do the same exact thing you did before. Pretend that you're happy, and if you do it for long enough one day you'll actually find out you really are happy.

In addition, since you're in sales/customer service, I'd totally recommend How To Win Friends & Influence People. Ask anyone that's read it, they'll agree it's a fantastic read.

Jam it back in, in the dark.