Staying up to late w/ no reason

I haven't slept earlier than midnight since 8th grade.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

I used to have some heavy insomnia where it was impossible for me to get any sleep and I remember just tossing and turning in sleep until the sun ripped through my blinds and I just couldn't get myself to not repeatedly check the time, and I'd just clench my eyes shut hoping that the alarm wouldn't ring yet.

Very traumatic times.

But then somehow around 2 years ago, I got all healthier and became able to sleep. Probably because I'm a lot more active now, and various other mental and emotional reasons but now I can sleep pretty easily. I just go to bed with my mp3 player and like a minute into the song I'm asleep. I can also sleep at essentially any point of the day, which rocks.

I hate going to bed though. It's just a nagging feeling I have that I don't want the day to end, so I just do meaningless shit hours and hours into the night until I tell myself "fuck I have to really go to bed" and it sucks because I also hate getting up in the morning. I try my best to get up as early as possible because I know if I get up too late I'll hate myself for it and waste the rest of the day because of a phlegmatic metabolism and mindframe.

Keeping my biological clock in check is harder than it is for most people... which is what I believe atleast. It's good because I CAN sleep when I need to, rather than "want" to... but I still very rarely get those nights where I have like a job interview the next day and I'm too nervous to fall asleep.

Sleep... man... fuck you, sleep. I hate such inferior needs we need like sleep.

There's nowhere I can't reach.