Help me please.......

Wow. You really need to use paragraphs.

Here's the thing. When adults tell you things like "You're only 17. This will pass," it's because they've been there and they know what you're going through. Emotions are confusing and most importantly, EXAGGERATED, when you're a teenager. It's not just people feeding you a line of bullshit; it's reality. It will pass. You just have to ride it out.

I don't know anyone who didn't feel alone and different and rejected at your age. It's something people have to go through. The best thing you can do is try not to dwell on your problems and believe people who are older and more experienced when they tell you that this situation and these feelings are temporary.

I'm sorry about your friend, but you have to realize that you're not responsible for her death. When a person is suicidal, there's very little another person can do to help them, unless you happen to be a trained psychiatrist.

Also, about this girl you "love," try to move on. If you're meant to be with her, you will be, and worrying about it isn't going to help you, especially if she knows how you're agonizing over her. If you don't listen to anything else I've said, listen to this: girls are repulsed by guys who are obsessed with them. If she wanted you, she'd be with you. She doesn't, so you have to move on. Begging, pleading, crying, screaming...none of that is going to help you win her. In fact, it's going to make her lose all respect for you.

Good luck to you.

How ya doing, buddy?