Easy affection

Really, you need to get some counseling. No one here is a professional, but I do think you have a very good understanding of why you gravitate toward people who give you attention, and that kind of self-awareness is important if you're ever going to be able to stop doing this.

This is just an opinion. I have no scientific data to back it up, but I believe that home environments like this are what cause a lot of girls (maybe boys, too, but particularly girls) to become sexually promiscuous.

I think what you do is better than being hard-hearted, but you're right. It is a problem. Maybe just recognizing it will help you to stop doing it.

Jam it back in, in the dark.