Religion: What it means to you

Hmmm Religion what it means to me...Well I don't know. From what i've read, viewed and seen, Religion looks more like a negative than a positive. People die, kill and commit acts that are heinous, under the name of God. However, that doesn't mean in any way i'm against Religion or God...

Me personally, im going through a spiritual crisis, and have been for two years. Ever since my Grandmother died...the fear of death is very huge for me. I fear death, because I feel I truly do not know what will happen after I die. Will I continue existing? Will I not? I was raised Catholic, and I should know that my soul will continue on...but I have a very big fear, that it was...not real. So my conflict is all about death, and that in turn, puts me in a spiritual crisis.

Religiously...I feel empty, there's nothing there and I don't think I want a religion per se, but more of a spirituality. I don't think it's right or fair to put down other spiritual or relgious groups, and claim you have the only right and true religion or whatever. I don't think Buddhists and Native Americans who are clearly in touch with...something that is in this world or beyond it. They feel something within themselves and with the entire planet, and to put them as "blasphemers" is something I just find cruel and unfair.

I guess what i'm trying to say is...I know there is a God, or some high being out there. However right now, my heart and spirit is still searching for it. I want to find the peace, love and harmony. I guess that's but a journey of life.

Jam it back in, in the dark.