Nobody could ever love the real me

Originally Posted by Eleo

I have a number of bad qualities which I can list. These are things I cannot change about myself, they are either the result of my inherent personality or of a philosophy that I cannot discard:
1. I am lazy. Very lazy. I don't even like to go out. I do clean up behind myself, but I definitely don't ever like to clean up behind other people, like family members. I avoid washing dishes, mowing the lawn, etc. Surely I have to do these things in certain cases, but I will do what ever I can to avoid them. This is me. I have always been a lazy dude.
2. I am addicted to my computer. I never want to leave it. When I am away from it for more than maybe 24 hours I get really agitated and can no longer enjoy myself. This is probably something that needs to be dealt with on a psychological leve. But still.
3. I am capable of being very heartless and cruel. I will not elaborate; I'll just say that some of the things I've thought of doing or are just wrong. (Disclaimer none of these things have to do with rape, etc.) I really don't care that much about other people. I remember this one guy I was going to date was talking about how often he did community service. I was basically like, sage, I don't want to work for free, wtf.
4. Very cynical. I have like 0 optimism regarding most things, and rarely see the bright side of anything. I only see what is wrong. As an atheist I look at life as being pretty much just absurd, I often question my reason for living.
5. I really don't give a damn about my own family. Seriously. I just don't care. They have not wronged me particularly, but I do not see them as anything but friends. If one of them were to die, I'd be like, meh, okay, and be sad, but in no way heartbroken or torn apart. I used to feel very strongly for my mother, but this eventually faded.

I think you just described the guy I was talking about that wanted to date me down to the letter. He's a really sweet, liberal guy who would rather cuddle than force a guy/girl to have sex, but he does fit those major descriptions. While I was at college last semester, he found this really sweet guy and they dated for a few months until something weird happened. They are still buddies and they still talk, but it is possible to meet a sweet person that loves those traits without being like that as well.

There are a few positives that can fall under those traits, and different people have different ways of thinking about what they want and what they don't want.

How ya doing, buddy?