What are you afraid of that you shouldn't be?

We have a bar next to the stairs in our house. When I shut off all of the lights in the basement and start walking upstairs to my room at night I always get creeped out by the darkness of the bar. I end up sprinting up the stairs. It's weird though, because I'm otherwise not afraid of the dark.

I also really dislike driving over bridges - I'm always thinking about what could happen if there's an accident. Same thing with trains + bridges.

Lastly, I really dislike boats. Wait... does this mean that I'm afraid of large bodies of water?

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Ah yes, how could I forget the heights thing. Looking over the edge of any tall structure is quite fear inducing - I can almost feel myself plumetting towards the streets below.

There's nowhere I can't reach.

I just thought of another thing, although this is probably a fear that is actually something that I should be worried about - getting rejected from med school. That's right - I'm applying in the fall and early 2007 to the Quebec schools, but what am I going to do if I don't get accepted? I could apply for my Masters as a back up, but do I really want to do my Masters and then apply to med again? I don't think so.

I have a good GPA, which will hopefully increase if I can pull off another 4.0 semester in a couple of weeks, but I'm always worrying that I don't have enough extra curriculars. The most important thing however, the interview. I almost got into McGill's med program immediately following my CEGEP, but I fucked up the interviews bad and was the ONLY person from my CEGEP who got an interview, but that didn't get in. What if I fuck up my interviews again? Seriously, this worries me. Although I am confident that I will get in this time, there is always the possibility that I won't. And then it's like, fuck, what do I do?

Actually, this would make a good journal entry - posted.

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.