Suicide

I know of a few people who have been suicidal for a long time. When they have seriously attempted suicide repeatedly for a number of years, and chance of recovery is looking slim, it makes you wonder if it would be better for them to succeed. I know that sounds horrid, but wouldn't you rather have someone you love end their suffering than live in pain? Any form of severe clinical depression is just as debilitating as physical illness can be. Of course there is a chance of recovery, but after a long time you do begin to question the likelihood.

I've been there. It's not pretty. And there are very vivid moments in my life after that I've been so grateful nothing I tried worked. But the depression was due to other illnesses in my life; it isn't something which will haunt me forever and ruin my life.

Jam it back in, in the dark.