Your Relationship with your Parents

I have a strange relationship with my parents sometimes kinda stressful... Well my father I don't really speak to him, and haven't seen him in years...he left right after I was born, and then I didn't see him again til I was about 8 then again at 10, almost every year til I was 14 and I haven't seen him since, and I'll be 20 next month. I went down to FL where he lives with his side of the family, and I stayed with my grandmother where he supossedly lives, and he knew that I was coming down, but "convienently" had to leave, and couldn't be there that day...then he called after I got back home, and made some bogus ass excuse...so I haven't spoken to him since and that was last summer...So as you can see I don't really care one way or another for him...if I never saw him again I doubt that I would care...

My mother on the other hand that's kinda complex...for awhile it was really superficial...I never heard her tell me she loved me more than 5 times my whole life (a generous approximation) until I left for college...she's said it more now, but I still feel weird saying it to her now, it feels akward... but besides that I never really shared any secrets, or any of my feelings with her at all... she doesn't know most of the big things that have happened to me and probably never will. I grew up in a house that you never really shared your feelings, and things were kept secret...I hate secrets now... but besides that we talk about school, tv, you know superficial topics nothing really deep...

That's about it... no real tight relationship... oh well...I'll do better by my own kids...

Jam it back in, in the dark.