College or work?

I thought I knew what I wanted when I dropped out of college last semester, but I'm not so sure anymore. I took a two year computer networking course at the local college here, and dropped out because I thought I could support myself with my own web design business. I've learned now that it just isn't feasible now, and I've been looking for a good career.

On every resume I put "Three of four semesters completed" when I describe my networking major. It REALLY pulls at me to read it like that, but that's how it is. It felt like I totally made up my mind, until now, that I didn't want to go back.

My marks were pretty bad when I did go to school. I couldn't stay focused because I had other things like games on my mind. This almost seems weird to me now because games and other online things don't really dominate my mind anymore. But the one thing that bugs me now is the fact my friend that I hung out while we went to college was on the honor roll for four semesters. His parents framed and hung his acheivements and I feel terrible. I'm a dropout, afterall. I would like to go back and prove my instructors, my friends and myself that I'm not an idiot.

As of now, one of the two must happen: find a good paying job that has full medical benefits because I'm diabetic, or go back full time to college so that my parents medical coverage will still cover me. It all boils down to the cost of my diabetic supplies. (God, I hate being dependant on medication.) I think that being a college graduate gives a person an edge when applying for a job, but I've seen people have good jobs without having post-secondary education.

I don't know if I'd be wasting time and money by going back to college or if I should try and get a good paying job like I mentioned. :/

Jam it back in, in the dark.

I've decided to take a look at the Programming course at the college. I've heard a ton of rumors they were gonna scrap it so I emailed the course coordinator.

I guess what's really been stopping me from going back to college is my independance. I've associated going back to college with being a leech when what I really want to do is move out on my own. My friends tell me that they wish they could go back home and whatnot, but to me it's a load of bull. I don't live with my parents, I live around them.

Also, I didn't want to impose myself on them for the cash for tuition. I don't ask for much from my parents and I feel guilty when I do. That, right there, is probably the only other reason I didn't want to go back. Now, I figure that I'll just tell them what I want to do. I could pay for it myself if I had to, but I know that they'll pay for it (which I think is sad) if they know I won't fail this time.

There's nowhere I can't reach.