Death visiting your life

I had to deal with deaths in the family since I was little. My Grandmother, whom I was very close with, died when I was about 6 and my mom didn't really sugar coat the truth. Since I was so young, it took me a while to really understand the whole concept of "she's never coming back". The next death that hit really close to home was a few years ago when my Great-Grandmother comitted suicide, although we weren't told that little detail until earlier this year. A year later, my uncle died really suddenly and that was the first death I had a really difficult time dealing with. He was only 56 and he died of all natural causes. Our families were really close and I have so many memories of him from when I was a little girl that it stung really badly for quite a while.

Jam it back in, in the dark.