What is wrong with me?

Everytime I get a girl to like me (whom I also like), I end up ignoring her or walking pass her when she says "HI!".

Once, I was so close! Me and this girl were alone in the auditorium. This was an odd occasion (I was with another girl I liked, but she ran off when the other girl came) So... then, we fooled around -- I stuffed her in the curtains. Then, she said she didn't want to class... I told her "Go to class!" - when I should have convinced/agreed for her to stay with me... for some fun time >.>

And now, I just ignore her... why am I like this? I'm such a chicken (or a pussy for lack of better term).

... what is wrong with me? ;_;

edit: This girl - I was eyeing for some time. And coincidentally, when I was playing the piano (beautifully, she comments), she approachs me and then afterwords, writes in her blog that she likes me.

And I also did this with another girl... I keep making the same mistake. I'm not strong enough.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Meh, when she tangled in the curtains, our conversation went kinda like this:
"Can you breathe?"
"Yes..."
"Damn!" (Grabs some rope and ended up chasing her like a fucking rapist) ._.

Yeah, ignoring her - smooth eh? =S But... bumping into her? I will try that.

Anyways, heh, I just met two new bitches... and they took (stole by force) my email. Piano is the best way for getting chicks =S

There's nowhere I can't reach.

In that case,
Are you available, Eleo?

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.

Are you hungry for chinese eggrolls and dumplings? Mine, to be specific...

Meh, I'm weird. Sometimes I'm able to speak with girls and sometimes I'm not. But today was an odd occasion -- I was even able to make them laugh histerically. =S

But yeah, I totally agree. Heh, I am very afraid of the future. I tend to border myself in the past and avoid thoughts of the present/future... Then again, I'm an asshole.

I am a dolphin, do you want me on your body?

Now, it's getting quite severe. I think I'm getting panic attacks when I'm around people resulting in antisocial behavior. It happens periodically and sometimes, I am the complete opposite - very social and outgoing. But now, I just feel down and out of it. Like... I'm afraid that I'll make a mistake.

I even walked out of my good (girl) friend's party without a clear explanation - I had to go to another party... which is true but it's my grandfather's. And I hope she didn't get the wrong idea - like her party sucked. I'll have to explain... sigh.

Heh, it's pretty pointless on the internet now. I'll ask my doctor. =S

PS. I'm 17.

I was speaking idiomatically.

Wow. Another girl likes me. And we hung around after school today. I go home. Block her because she was going to be a huge distraction (And I'm an asshole/dumbass). Finds out. And is mad pissed (obviously).

And I don't know if I like her. I'm very confused right now. My friend also likes her and I already betrayed him before. Except, this time it's quite..... horrendous ;_; I told him that nothing is between me and her. But she is quite down about her last relationship. I don't want to fake it and go out with her. Is that selfish of me? I want to figure if she is the one... (sounds kinda lame).

I don't think I can take it anymore. >.< I'm going to go gay after this =S

What kind of toxic man-thing is happening now?