The Christmas Blues..

For someone reason, for as long as I can remember, I have always get this case of really bad christmas blues. I feel really shitty, I feel really depress, Upset w/ everything, I can't seem to shake all these bad feelings and I become overly mellow, like nothing phases me but I want to cry all at the sametime... It's wierd.

Now, don't get me wrong, during the year I get depressed from time to time, but I can usually just shake them right off w/ a little bit of a self pep talk but when Christmas comes around.. I just start thinking about how much I wasted my last year, accomplished nothing, or I point out where I fucked up during the year. I know I shouldn't I try to tell myself otherwise but for some reason I can't seem to get over it.

Now my medical history may have something to do w/ it.. I'm bi-polar and Boarderline Schizo but I hate meds, been on them and I hated being a pill zombie, I rather feel then not feel at all.

Basically, I'm asking if anyone has suffers from this and anyone have a common cure for the Christmas blues?

Jam it back in, in the dark.

The funny thing is that I think you might be right... Last year, I didn't have the christmas blues b/c I guess I had alot to look forward to in the time following christmas plus I spent most of my christmas time partying so I had nothing reason to focus on it.

How ya doing, buddy?