Sexual naivete, ignorance and openess

I don't discuss my feelings about sex with my friends for a few reasons - I'm the only one who hasn't done it (ugly, nebbish), I don't trust any of them not to ridicule me about what I say when I'm not around, and because I've got a somewhat peculiar view of sex.

Basically, I've never done it and I don't really want to. People make such a big deal about it that I don't even want to make an effort to do it. One more thing for me to worry about failing at. I've come to regard it as something that's beyond me, and figure I'll focus on things I can control, which I have enough trouble dealing with already.

So to me it's just another part of life, and I don't mind when other people discuss it. Since I have no experience with it personally, it's interesting for me to hear about other people's experiences with sex, just as it's interesting for me to hear about cultures outside of my own, music that's different than what I'm used to hearing, life in the 19th century, etc.

As far as public displays of affection go, holding hands, a quick kiss, hug, that's fine. But making out is kind of annoying. I've never had even a meaningful relationship with a girl, so I think I look at having one in the same way as some virgins look at sex; like it's some magical, sacred thing. It seems like the sort of thing I'd want to keep between myself and my partner to a certain extent.

Maybe if I ever do find myself in a relationship like that, I'll change my mind. The same could very well be possible about sex, but I'm not counting on either.

How ya doing, buddy?