Just get away from it all

I've been feeling over the past year that I would like to leave everyone I know behind and start over somewhere else. To completely erase any impression I may have made on anyone. But not even death will accomplish that.

I don't drink or do any drugs, haven't even began to learn how to drive, and I'll be nineteen in August. I don't go to parties because I'm afraid of interacting with people I don't know. I'm going to have to drop out of high school. I haven't had a job since the end of January and I can't bring myself to go apply for another one.

I would like to get away from everything.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Originally Posted by PUG1911

You don't want to get away from everything, you want to change your behaviour as it relates to other people. Nothing stopping you from doing that in your current situation. After you've gotten over your issues of not getting a job, going to school, or socializing, then you can re-evaluate whether you want to get away or not.

At least that's the way it looks from your brief post.

Just wishful thinking on my part. I've fallen into a pattern of quietly self-destructive behavior that I can't get out of. I know what my responsibilities and I just find myself shirking them, like I'm watching myself in a dream. To be able to start over before I became such a weirdo and before anyone had percieved me as such would be pretty nice.

But life doesn't work that way and I think I read way too much into the question of this topic. Sorry about that.

There's nowhere I can't reach.