Emotional Continuum?

It really bothered me when I realized that a while ago - that no matter how hard you work to get to a certain point, there will always be more work to do, more sadness, more hard times, more bullshit. Sometimes I wonder what the point of even trying is - why even bother trying to pull myself out of a hole if I'm gonna fall into another one before I can even enjoy life above ground? Makes me want to kill myself.

But hey - fuck it, right? I guess if you're lucky, you find something to live for and keep going.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Originally Posted by AliceNWondrland

No offense starslight, but you're coming off like a spoiled brat in your post. Who doesn't have hard times? Life's a journey. You have to go through tough times in order to learn and develop character. Who do you know who hasn't suffered, been sad, been through hard times, and had to work? You're talking about killing yourself because of that? I wouldn't have things any other way.

Kids these days. =/

Well, I guess I am what I am, regardless of how I'd like to think of myself, but to elaborate a bit -

I know that everyone has ups and downs, that some part of life is always going to be unpleasant. But you keep going because you have a goal, something to work towards, someone to work for. When you reach your goal, make happy the person you're trying to make happy, then that's the good part - that makes all the bad stuff worthwhile.

The point of my post, I guess, was that life is real shitty and meaningless when you don't have something like that. I know that because that's my life. The suicide allusion was off-handed self-loathing, which is a bad habit and not helping my cause any. I was really just trying to drive home the point of finding something good to focus on when things are tough.

There's nowhere I can't reach.