Do I have schizophrenia?

OK I'm freaking the hell out. I think I have schizophrenia, I fit many prodomal symptoms, and since I've been afraid of having it it has gotten sooo bad.

My anxiety is through the roof. For the past year I've been battling with my personality and who I am. I really hated myself, and seemed hopeless. I didn't want to do anything and I wasn't motivated at all. Recently, I've come to terms with my personality, and have been able to focus on things a little better (the past couples days have been great, this has been going on for almost a year). I felt amazing, I felt relieved, I felt like myself again.

The other night I looked up symptoms to what I was feeling before "my breakthrough" to see what the problem might have been.

I found out that I became obsessive compulsive about my personality and how to be a better person is what I found. I have a couple personality disorders and I'm slightly OCD, but I have confidence in fixing them.
I didn't want to do anything but think about it, or socialize

I lacked interest in other stuff, hobbies. I was a people person

I was depressed on and off, felt like I had breakthroughs here and there

Felt slight emotional flatness

I didn't hear any voices or anything....and I didn't lose my touch of reality....but right now I'm kind of feeling like that, just really shaky, stressed, feeling like I'm going crazy, lightheaded...This is the only time I've had these symptoms, and It's been since I've read about it. So I'm hoping it's psychosomatic stress.


The past few days I've felt like myself again, this is gone, I feel like I'm on the verge of losing my mind. I've always been a hypochondriac, and the feelings I have now are very similar to my cases of hypochondria in the past, except this one feeds itself. I'm becoming more and more anxious and paranoid, which are symptoms. But the anxiousness and paranoia are about having the disease itself.

I'm probably going to see a shrink, because I am just SOOOO damn stressed right now. I had some panic attacks last night. I'm absolutely terrified of having this disease.


Do you guys think I'm being a bitch and just looking for reasons to worry?

Or that I might actually have this disease?

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Do you got it?

There's nowhere I can't reach.

I posted this on Yahoo! answers

Terrified of being schizophrenic? - Yahoo!7 Answers

It really makes me feel better...but I still have that hypochondriac doubt

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I posted this on Yahoo! answers

Terrified of being schizophrenic? - Yahoo!7 Answers

It really makes me feel better...but I still have that hypochondriac doubt

All I did today was sit in my room and worry. I didn't' do anything! I just thought and thought, and I was scared. I had panic attacks so much today. I actually feel like im going crazy!!

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.

like im just going to shut down or something

I am a dolphin, do you want me on your body?

If I was losing my mind, would this terrible feeling come and go? It only came when I was afraid of being crazy, and it's happened to me before, this isn't the first time. This time though, it's lasting a lot longer and really scaring me.

Like I said though, It has came and gone over the past few days. It's usually present, but I have had very very refreshing reprieves, where I feel like myself again and am very happy. I fear it will come back though, and it does.

My face gets hot and my pulse increases. My hands get really cold. I feel overwhelmed and like I can't think straight. I feel kind of lightheaded too, almost like I'm "losing my mind though". I've been looking for schizophrenic symptoms with my extremely apparent *vigilance and scanning*. Like I'm trying to hear voices. I look at things and try to make them move to make sure. they don't...yet

It makes total sense that it's anxiety right? I mean I've experienced this feeling before in times of great stress, and am experiencing it right now, but only after getting the fear of having schizophrenia. If it came...all of a sudden, from a fear...and matches the symptoms of anxiety disorder...that's it, no?

btw, regardless of everything, I'm going back to the states and visiting a psychiatrist. I'm absolutely miserable. thats the BEST way to desribe it

I was speaking idiomatically.

Alright guys. I've come to the realization that it is only anxiety. I've also tested my theory. I feel absolutely perfect now.

I realized that my whole life I've had a problem with nerves and stress, anxiety and hypochondria, jealousy, and just in general, being a bitch.

I'm 18 and heading into the real world. It's time for me to grow up.

Thanks for all your help, especially SuperNova, who woke me up to the idea of vigilance and scanning, which was exactly what made me think I was going nuts.

Hopefully my new, objective and logical theory on life will work. Thanks again

What kind of toxic man-thing is happening now?