Let's be friends

I tried to be friends with my first bf and it was such a toxic relationship hahaha I for one was not over him and he was pretty attuned to that fact, but now as time has passed we are so nice to each other cause like i still am quite fond of the guy but i dont want to be with him anymore so I still enjoy the traits that attracted me to him in the first place just not in a romantic way. I think it is really bad when one of the people still has deeper feelings for the other. And with my most recent ex, well for one he doesnt have anyone around him even for the possibility of a relationship so when he talks to me there is a lot of attitude cause he doesnt want me to catch onto that fact even though I already know, and he will be so bitchy to me to I dunno make himself feel superior so it always feels like a competition between us and I always win cause i actually have a social life, but then I feel sorry for him so i say stuff like "I will help you meet some people" "I'll take you out sometime" but I know deep down that if he gained an louce of popularity or became friends with one of my friends I would be verry bitter so its all talk haha. So for me relationshipd with exes dont work very well except for raare instances and for that to work I have to be in a relationship so i dont feel drawn to them.

Jam it back in, in the dark.