Noticing girls after they've gotten into a relationship

I turned down the last 3 relationships I could have engaged in. I'm indifferent to women for now. The last four months of my life have elevated my sexual and emotional awareness. The end of a serious relationship, moving in with female strippers/call girls, my ex fiancee showing her face again, a near death experience in which I was actually resuscitated by paramedics. It's nice to remember how beautiful freedom and peace of mind are, as well as having insight on how long life really is and how much time you have to find yourself and to find love.

If you're looking for a relationship, you have to up your game. Consider what you have to offer. Are you emotionally stable? Can you be a pillar of faith if need be? Are you going places? Are you respectable by popular vote? Do you brush your teeth? Do you have a life? A means by which to entertain(job)? How's your skin? Can you make a girl smile? If you can confidently answer these questions, you should have no problem getting over your fear of women.

Like you, I was once inexperienced and naive. With experience and less internet, you'll get the hang of it. It's a process that will tear you limb from limb in exchange for higher ground and a better view. When it's good, it's great. Put yourself out there. You won't need to worry about being too late. The chicks will be interested in you from the get go.

Jam it back in, in the dark.