Me gots the blues

Once every few weeks, I break down and think to myself, is it really worth it. It all just seems so hopeless and although I'm fighting through it, Almost everything I encounter seems to be working against me, wanting for me to fail. I just feel like sometimes giving in and give up, hoping that maybe that way I would be at peace, to not be worried anymore and fear anymore . BUT then, just then right before I am about to give in, I get back up and keep on trying.

When your down and feel like you can't go on anymore BUT find someway to just keep going, what are some ways you find to motivate yourself to carry through and keep it going?

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Originally Posted by Denicalis

Grow out of puberty and man the fuck up. It works wonders.

good one

There's nowhere I can't reach.

Originally Posted by DarkMageOzzie

This may sound odd coming from me, but beating yourself up over things definately isn't going to make you feel any better. Of course I don't know what your problem is. But alot of times people act like their is some right way to live life. Like if you do what they say that everything will go right, which is a load of crap. Most good things in life come down to luck and chance. So really, why beat yourself up over something we can't control. Just keep trying and maybe you'll find what you want.

That's how I look at it anyhow. Sure I still get depressed sometimes but who doesn't?

You're absolutely right, although I didn't give out any details to why I feel like this sometimes, now that I think about it, it's something that's completely out of my control. whatever happened already happened, whatever needs to happen in the future will be, I need to focus on what's happening now. Sure I will probably still get those feelings still but you're absolutely right I need to just keep trying. It's like I already knew but I get lost and forgot in the mess. I'll keep trying, trying, and trying.

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.

Originally Posted by Denicalis

Out of curiosity, have you ever been checked out by a shrink for possibly being bi-polar? These bullshitty sunshine posts you've been dropping around the boards make you come off ten shades of manic. You might have problems beyond just being a whiny teenager.

What do you want from me? no, my counselor never brought up the possibility. My original post was not posted because I was feeling down at the moment (whining as you put it), it was a comment about how I felt that way sometimes and was wondering how other's dealt with it when they go through similar feelings (this obviously offended you). Obviously you must deal with your own problems better than me BUT then to pick on me for not being able to do the same? I just don't understand you. What are you doing? do you think it's funny?

My response the third time was an acknowledgment that it was a good advice! Are you trying to make me mad? Look, I don't know you and Obviously you don't know me. All I wanted was advice and possibly good ways to use to ease those feelings. Really I just don't understand what you're trying to do?
How about you leave me alone, and I'll leave you alone? okay

I am a dolphin, do you want me on your body?

Originally Posted by Denicalis

What am I trying to do? I'd think that was obvious. I was asking you if you'd ever been diagnosed as manic or bi-polar, because you seem to show a lot of the signs of it. Extreme depression followed by immense highs and sudden immensely sunshiney outlook on life. You seem to get the roller coaster, and I was wondering if you'd been given a proper ticket for it yet.

You said I seem to show a lot of signs of it?! After a few post you got that? Anyways, and again may I remind you that the THE ORIGINAL POST was describing a feeling I get sometimes, I wasn't feeling that at the moment, I was curious how others deal with their problems. Denicalis, Thanks for your concern, to be completely honest with you i don't know. I mean are counselors suppose to tell their patience those things?, if they are, I have not heard.

"Extreme depression followed by immense highs and sudden immensely sunshiney outlook on life."

I will admit I do get the roller coaster feelings (but isn't it true for a lot of people that go through with this?) for me it's not at the kind of speed that you describe- the extreme highs and suddenly lows, and yes I do consider some of my past depression episodes have gotten extreme before BUT I don't "suddenly" come out of them and pretend that my life will be all great without problems and "sunshiney" from here on out.

I acknowledge the people that have given some great ways to think about life, it is very helpful to me.

Thanks nanaman!

I was speaking idiomatically.