What the fuck do you want to do with that thing you call your life?

I often ask myself this question, and, I'm often asked by other people as well. Primarily my dad asks me as to what my plans are with the remainder of my life.

Well, I don't know. I can't figure anything out, and I really don't have any desires at the moment pertaining to such a topic. As important as I've been told it to be, I'm at a point of uncaringness.

I'm currently in college trying to figure out what major to pursue. In a sense, I am secretly looking for something easy to tackle. Maybe it's sheer laziness, but I'm not up for tackling 25 page papers to write up. (Exaggerating of course). My dad tells me I possess artistic talent. I find cooking, piano playing, listening to music, drawing/painting, and being so damn organized to be somewhat enjoyable. I've never actually posted anything on these forums, so no one can actually confirm my talents. But, if you've ever read my chocojournal, I have made several music requests and just recently posted a bunch of instrumental junk. (Though, all wiped out now. Due to some new resolution).

What am I doing now? Studying BMS. Bio Molecular Science. Why? Because of how well I did in one stupid Chemistry course during my Sophmore year in high school. Is that a significant cause to fuel any hopes of pursuing a major in BMS? No. I used to believe it was. I used to believe that I had some kind of knack in science. That all crumbled upon completing my spring semester last May. Failed Chemistry, failed my intro class to Chemical & Biological Engineering, and still as hopeless and lost as ever.

So, what do I do now? I really wouldn't know. Before the board crash last March, I used to reply to topics in The Quiet Place involving problems other members have been having. Real life problems, academic, and other things in quite a variety of subjects. I don't know how many of you may even remember my old user name: JGK150, but thats what I went by before. To my surprise, many members found my advice extremely helpful. Several have even looked up my AIM info in my profile and sought more advice. So, could this maybe be something I can consider for a future career path? Maybe. But at the moment, I'm feeling lazy. So, where are all the easy things?

Jam it back in, in the dark.