Suicide

sucuidal thoughts are something i've had since i was a child (think primary school age, so around 5 onwards). i used to think about ways to kill myself and sometimes even taking the rest of the family with me, or just killing them and running away, i'd also think about what people's reaction would be and what life would be like without me (obviously, no one would care because i'm the quiet one in the corner =p). i still do, but only about killing myself. though i usually get these thoughts during my periodic depressions which just occur randomly or because of aggravation from either family or university.

it's easy to call people who consider/commit sucuide selfish, but they're in a different frame of mind, you lose track of everything and can only concentrate on the bad things and being in a bad mood just means bad things just seem to keep occuring. but in my case, i usually just need to rant at people and get some attention >.>

Jam it back in, in the dark.