First "breakup"

You're not going to be able to suddenly "stop caring about it." Its probably going to take a while for you to get used to not having her there, since she was there for the past 8 months. But believe me, it will fade in time.

I'm with Russ on not giving back any of the shit. Its yours. She gave it to you.

And yea, if you broke up (on her behlaf or yours), you know it won't work out. You know there's tension and issues between the two of you. Why would you want to go back? For familiarity purposes? Thats weak, man. You need to pack up and move on. It will take time in the purgatory of post-breakups, but its best you keep on keepin' on.

Jam it back in, in the dark.