Religion: What it means to you

First I become a confused hypocritic, then I become a cynical judgemental self-righteous cock tease.

Admitting should be the first step after becoming a Christian and hiding it.

Why do I feel ashamed of being a Christian? Sigh. What's worse is that I try to listen to both ends of the spectrum and I had taken a world religions philsophy course which is very informative and covered every religion known to the public. And when I do understand, I still am stubborn in my own conflicted beliefs. Its like I'm trying to understand how it is to be black when I'm born white. I assume its impossible to grow out of your own religion when its all around you.

If anything... it taught me a lot about people and their nature at least their true nature in general and how religion can be a culture clash for some. It still doesn't help me though. But I certainly don't recall any religion devoutees saying it is easy to be a devout follower.

Jam it back in, in the dark.