Good thread to read...
I haven't read a post that is really similar to what I was going through. Personally all my life I just thought I should fatten up. To me I thought fatties had EVERYTHING. Money, freedom, toys, and definitely FOOD. Yeah I actually envied fatties just for that. Imagine how skinny I was all my childhood. It was pretty bad to where my baby teeth rotted during pre-puberty.
There's no fatties in my family at all, there's guts and etc, but no fatties. I meant like heavy thighs/extra handles/arm blobs fat. I guess my family just naturally don't have that gene for anyone to really balloon up or anything. I figured its genetics and metabolism or something. But yeah my whole family is naturally damn skinny. So on top of THAT, I was deprived of extra food for so long.
Finally like around teenager stage I developed and fatten up a little to where I was feeling comfortable with myself finally. I was paranoid that my weight would kill me or something. I had a lot of fainting spells as well as lightheaded as a child. And currently? I have been at the same weight since college. High school weight was my personal best which was at 140 and currently its just 170. I'm 5'8.
And like Gechimr, most of weight goes straight to my leg muscles. My legs are like fucking tree trunks. Even my ankles are so damn embarrassing, I wouldn't dare be caught wearing without socks. And yeah I had problems finding a GOOD pair of pants too Gech. Its unbelievable.
Jam it back in, in the dark.
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