Charisma

I don't have too much charisma. I guess it depends on the person I'm talking to. Sometimes the conversation ends with awkward silence. When this happened when I was younger I used to think, "Well I have nothing else to say to this person, so why say anything else?" But that kind of thinking would obviously makes me sound quite rude. Now I don't think like that, but I'm still making the awkward silences in conversations

I don't know why but I trip over my words when I talk. I'll think of things to say, but when it comes time to say it, I mess it up. It's usually when I'm trying to explain something.

I guess an insecurity I have is worrying about what others think. I know I'm not an eloquent speaker so I guess when I talk to people (especially people I rarely speak to) I worry that they might think I speak weird or something. I mean it's happened before. I've overheard people.

People have told me I'm awesome for some reason. I'll just talk and they'll say it. It's usually when I attempt to explain something, and I don't explain it well. I then say some made up word like "bleehhhh" or say I don't know. But before they say the line "Aji, you're awesome" they get this look on their face like "Was that it?" or "Did he just end the story? I'm confused now."

So yeah I don't think I'm too charismatic.

Jam it back in, in the dark.