Gaps. Holes.

I've been told that my memory is eidetic. I am not sure if thats the case but I do know that I have the potential to remember things very vividly. If the experience is dramatic enough, then I can remember things to the merest detail. Such as the placement of fixtures in a room that I was in at 2 years of age. Its been 22 years and I can still remember that room like it was yesterday.

Other memories, painful ones reside in a dark place of my mind. Experiences from a few years ago might be forgotten if traumatic enough. I don't like the aspect of dissociation but the psyche can often be quite fragile, either that or the horrors of life to vivid to contend with emotionally at any given time. The mind is an amazing creature in that it is a self healing and self protecting. Whether it is better to learn to survive in lieu of emotional sensitivity and insight or spend the rest of one's life running, a prisoner to their own mind and broken memories, is fairly obvious.

At any rate, I've held off certain memories of events that put me in a state of shock and/or paralysis but it is no way to live.

Jam it back in, in the dark.