Times of Solitude

I used to think that I enjoy my alone time, but there would be this blaring in the back of my head that demanded to be around others that would cause me to lament for awhile till I eventually got the chance and realized that I'd rather be alone again.

Made me crazy and fearful that I wouldn't know how to balance a relationship if my desire to be alone was so strong. But then there are the anomalies to consider. I can think of probably one person whom I have absolutely no reservations being around. Of course I occasionally want my solitude when we're together but it doesn't stop me from wanting to hang out if the opportunity presents itself.

So I think it just comes down to an issue of logistics. There are only certain people I'm willing to be around and the rest of my time is reserved for me. Which in all likelihood could very well change in the near or distance future, but in the mean time me, myself, and I are getting along fine.

Jam it back in, in the dark.