Crisis of faith?

Philia:

Well, your thoughts come off a bit cliche at this point. Around 1st-year college student who just took a philosophy class or read some Marxist literature. Imagine Agent Smith's argument about "Mankind being a virus" from the first Matrix movie and that's about your mindset right there.

However, (and this is my personal opinion, feel free to disagree), I live by a more optimistic code. While you see destruction of environment, greed, etc... you fail to realize that it's a natural progression of life. While you think animals are "innocent," it's purely because they lack the intelligence and manual dexterity required to build tools/communicate/think/etc... Surely they would follow our same path if they had a similar IQ, no?

But that's just the negatives, think of the positives that have come out of human development. Artwork, poetry, film, music, philosophy, LOVE. I mean, come on, the ability to think, experience, and LIVE! Surely this is a worthy cause to save. To only focus on the "evil" is to block out what else makes us human.

I read that you feel a bit helpless at your job, as though you were not affecting anything. I'll quote something that (silly enough) I saw in a videogame, probably paraphrased from some great scholar:

"Even at his most powerless, man's existence is never without meaning." -Suikoden

I truly believe that. You may think that you are hurting the planet or your fellow man, but that's only true if you make it to be so. Find your own personal reason to exist, realize that you affect more people than you think. I assume you have a family or friends. Think of what losing you would do to them.

I may be rambling a bit by now, but I think you need to start seeking out the good in people instead of expecting the bad.

Jam it back in, in the dark.